miss you danny boy. never forgotten. 10/19/87-09/23/07.

whoa there happiness, nice to see ya again.

what the fuck.

my main man MJ just died.

today just turned for the worst. i hate that.

fuck.

i miss him.

somehow. i don't hate him.

and i can't get him out of my mind, ever.

i seriously want to go jump off a fucking bridge. i have never been so stressed. i fucking hate money. my chest hurts from all this stress. wtf.

dear life,
get back under my control. i can not handle everything being so insane.

so many tattoo ideas.
no money.


whomp.

i will be posting a very heart-wrenching, life-altering, scary as fuck, and personal entry.



don't say i didn't warn you.

of course the first year i'm thinking hey fuck you dad i'm gonna go to gmom's for easter on my own because i know she'd love to have me at church & for lunch with her [in a cute easter sundress]

annndddd we have a flyers game.
not just a flyers game, the last reg season game. so i DEFINITELY cannot miss it.


whomp.

fml.

wii is the best shit ever.

minus the migraine i went through after playing it.

but seriously.

so i've decided to get back into reading again.. send me wonderful, attention-grabbing books!

and you'd think i'd hate that xmas is soon and then chris' bday is less than a month later and thennn he's moving in feb/march [me too kinda],
but i'm lovin it! i have so much i want to give him, but he'll yell at me if i do it all for xmas.
so there's something huge that he'll love that i want to give him for moving out, so for his bday i'm gonna give him something that's a clue. =]
and i'm giving him a clue for xmas about his bday gift.

me so smart.

i need white flats.
so i can wear my brown with white pinstripped dress pants that chris bought me when i worked for vzw.
they fit. i love them. but i dont have shoes to wear them with. i have one pair of white pointy toed shoes. but 8 hours in those, no thanks.

suggestions please, i cant seem to find any.

it's funny how sometimes you go through a huge fight with someone and things are never the same.
but sometimes it changes everything and you feel so in love its crazy.


i am head over heels.

i need a new smell.
a personal scent.
something that says "deanna"

any perfume suggestions??

happy 21st danny.




















when will this get easier?

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